HELLO HELLoshack
hello i am elvarg this is my shack where i post my thoughts
22/08/2023, i went through a breakup around four months ago and everything seems kinda lame now. i been trying to deal with it but it's becoming worse and worse each day instead of becoming better. i've given up hope that my life will get better, because it wont. everybody always says these things with so much confidence and like they know me, or what it's like to be me. my ex was bad to me but i loved her so it's whateva, i would prob take her back if she wanted to. i also been thinking about life in general, absurdity of the universe type of shit. it's human nature to try find meaning and when we're faced with the idea that there might not be a greater reason for our existance it begins to take a tole on us. i am at a strange place mentally, at peace and almost enjoying the idea of having no purpose or greater reason, but also hating it. i currently am alive not for myself but for other people, my mum would just khs if i kms so thats off the table lol. i've also been thinking about an idea that i had, that life and death don't exist. instead, we are all one, and that one is the universe. our body is made up from the universe, and when we die our body will decompose and the atoms will go into other forms of life. you are the universe and the universe is you.